Lost and dazed in this utter confusion.
Worry has struck my heart as it has all hearts.
Am I being who she wants me to be?
Am I really the phony I appear to be?
I gaze at her and pray for the miracle that she sees me in the same light as I see her.
Is this love…? What is love anyway?
Why do I torture myself with worry and jealousy?
Am I jealous? Is there a reason for it?
Jealousy can kill love.
Why is it that simple conversing can strike a jealous nerve?
The nerve it hits hurts like the last gasp of air before death.
Can I relax and stop trying so hard?
Will I make her run from me with my worries and anguish?
We touch, we laugh today…
but I want to be part of her past…
“Remember this…remember that?”
But no: fear of rejection tore me away from that line of hope.
Why so much fear?
I only wish I were brave – only to love, and not be afraid.
Flashback of the past:
“I don’t stay in relationships long…
“I get sick of them…”
Am I wrecking it with worry?
I don’t know, but this is how I am.
I love you, I love you. I love you so much it hurts.
Comfort me as I comfort you.
I need your love and your smile.
Pour yourself into me, and I will no longer be lost from you.
Protector and Provider
Lover
Keep you Safe
For now…
I am lost…………..